Results released today at 4pm. I got my online result at approx. 5pm (late, as usual). Next stop, graduation. Interview first before I can enjoy. I must start preparing for interview soon.

So, all I know is that I passed. With what I don't know. Flying colours? Ok colours? No colours? Regardless, a pass is a pass... I get to practice pharmacy once I'm posted. :) Am I ready? :)

Colourful's best isn't it...

Oh well, I did my best. No regrets.

Hello,

Just posting one before it all ends. When I'm still feeling the stress and all. 

So, been studying for 4 years at IMU. Pharmacy course isn't exactly a walk in the park. I don't know if the case is the same with those in other unis but IMU seems to have a knack for squeezing one dry. BPharm course, to be exact. Although things have been made easier for us compared to our seniors, or so I've heard, one can seriously break down during study break. I don't know how to put it in words, but those who have experienced it will know. 

If you ask me, among all the exams I've taken so far, which one is the hardest? My answer: BPharm, hands down. And to think STPM (A-levels equivalent) is the 3rd hardest exam in the world. STPM was stressful also, but all I remembered was that I had great fun. It could be that I was doing it locally, with my family and all the comfort of home around me, hence I don't feel that stressed out.

Studying in KL, I've heard friends cried buckets due to stress during study break, some cannot sleep until they resort to drug abuse (cough meds), one lost so much weight over the span of 2 weeks, nausea and vomiting and inability to take down food, seeking counsellor, wanting to give up and other stress-induced signs and symptoms. 

I usually prepare for exam early in order to avoid suicidal thoughts during study break (joke). However, I have to admit it takes a lot of mental energy to last through study break and throughout exam period. The reason is just that human memory cannot retain so many hard facts. Most subjects do not require a lot of thinking, mostly how well one can retain information (so if u're blessed with photographic memory, it's a breeze). Also, we have so many subjects and we cannot choose subjects we want to take, u have to pass all. Least number of subjects in all semesters: ~5 written paper (no counting in-course assessments) back to back. 

I know how we used to have exam papers in the morning then in the afternoon and there's no complains about it. But in uni, back to back papers are VERY stressful. Due to 90% memory work, we have to cram an entire semester regarding one paper in less than a day. That means, sitting down and start talking to yourself. Depending on how many lectures we have in that subject, sometimes there's no time to even look up from my notes for 5 minutes. If you want to sleep that is. 

The worst was when we had exam from monday to saturday. That week, I was like shit. I honestly don't know how I got over it. And that one time when the last day of exam (2nd week) was postponed another day due to power shortage. OMG. Hardest day of my life. I was supposed to go home that evening cuz I've booked my flight and my mom was in town, and it was week 2 already. And it was the last day. And they postponed it. Extending my hell another 24 hours. The thought still pisses me off (piss being a very mild word to what I was feeling). 

I saw this quote my friend posted on facebook-

The best years? I had the most ups and downs during these past 4 years. The ups were euphoric at times, and the downs, were really, really down. Maybe it's the best year of my life. But if given a chance, I will NOT choose to repeat it anyhow. No way. The ups were not worth the downs, that's all I can say.

Last day of exam 2mr. Let's hope I don't screw anything up and maintain a clear head for OSCE. I'm not really studying much since after my written paper Tuesday. Feeling very drained, lethargic constantly... Mentally exhausted, this being the last one. If there's another year, I'll bet we all can get through it as well. After all, we have no choice but to face it head on. 

I'm ready to move on to the next phase of my life. :)

Before that, 12 noon 2mr will be the happiest moment of my life. Playtime.